i gave it back to you again?
what is
IT in the first place.
yeah okay. i get it,
its all my fault.
anyway, even before
this, i already accepted the fact that i was to blame.
so be it. i'm too tired to fight back already.
yeah, so i'm becoming more like a wall to you each day. because i seriously can't be bothered anymore. and i'm
not sorry for it.
because i know i've tried.
steal my soul; 11:28 PM
yeah. this month is all about teamwork.
and it so happens the tournaments are up as well.
. T ogether
. E veryone
. A chieve
. M ore
and yes, floorball is a team game.
so whatever we're doing,
its going to be for the team.
be it going down to form a wall or scoring etc.
so lets Just Do It. all for the team (:
steal my soul; 9:45 PM
yes! we won again. 16-1 against yishun town.
despite the huge difference in goals,
i still feel like i wasn't playing as well as the last 2 matches.
anyway, the next 2 teams we're playing with are going to be tough,
so we really need to have faith and start focusing.
come on, lets win this (:
steal my soul; 9:30 PM
i'm tired of
this.
i've been having a lot of problems lately.
but i'm happy the fights are stopping.
you're going crazy,
and i seriously had enough.
i give up. i'm letting it all go.
i'm sorry for this, but its the end.
i tried, but you just kept confusing me with your actions.
steal my soul; 8:26 PM
yeah, you're right.
if we're fighting so badly over such small things,
we're not going to make it through anything.
so lets stop fighting.
steal my soul; 3:20 PM
i can't take it anymore.
i swear everything is getting on my nerves.
i feel so frustrated and crying ain't helping.
so just give me a break.
steal my soul; 2:04 PM
god, you're my bestfriend.
and you keep breaking down,
and getting pissed these few days.
i feel so
helpless not being able to help.
steal my soul; 11:00 PM
YAY! 3 more to go. (:
we won, 8-1. against east view.
however, the goal that was let in was absolutely redundant. or so i felt.
anyway, today's match was like some drama series. this girl from their team got hurt- 'broke her knee' or smth.
yeah, she was crying in pain. and an ambulance had to come.
their team was commendable though!
as they still put up a strong fight after the incident.
steal my soul; 5:59 PM
any amount of freedom was
never enough for you. so now you know that not everyone can be like me.
but sorry, kid. i already have someone else that'll cherish me.
steal my soul; 11:00 PM
today just
ain't such a great day.
i was late for school,
and you cried
again.
you tell me its not because of him,
and somewhat i can't help but have doubts.
I also got really cranky and tired after getting home from floorball.
everything just seems to get on my nerves.
steal my soul; 10:26 PM
yeah, we've all changed.
we're no longer happy people.
you're always sick, and i don't know how to make you feel better
anymore.
neither can i remember how i used to cheer you up, and comfort you when you're down.
its all gone, hun.
steal my soul; 11:20 PM
hun, i'm sorry. yeah, again.i swear i never wanted
this to happen.
i
used to be always there for you.
but there's just something you never realise.
you took it for granted then, and only thought of me now.
when i'm
no longer there by your side.
i'm
not blaming you for this or anything else.
and i'm really trying my best to make it up.
to save this friendship we share.
but some things just changed.
and if you think i didn't care,
then think about this.
why would i feel hurt when you feel hurt?
steal my soul; 9:29 PM
SONNET WRITING during bmw today.
the shakespeare's way (:so this was what came out of it :
( note: ten syllabus in every sentence! ,
and the rhyming of A. B. A. B )
-------------------------------------------------
CourageTo my capacity, thou was courage.
O thou my father, thou displayed no fear.
No doubt you were magnanimous, a sage.
Never have you succumbed to hurtful jeers.
For thy sake, thou great pride was sacrificed.
Your feelings so upset but never shown.
Thou doings were akin to Jesus Christ.
With the wind away, it was never blown.
Thy one wish is to be likened to thee.
Nerves of steel,heart of gold,pure is your soul.
From problems, never have i seen thou flee.
In thy life, thou played an important role.
A virtue of depth so greatly instilled,
The call of courage comes without being willed.
- melsa, sherilyn, elaine and i
steal my soul; 9:28 PM
yeah, we won bedok south. 5-0.
1 down, and 4 more to go!
lets do this (:
steal my soul; 7:04 PM
yeah, 2 alternatives: fear. or
faith.
and jill's right.
we don't want history to happen again.
so who cares about who these people are.
we're going to be strong.
both mentally and physically.
and
not let this fear enter our game.
be it bukit merah sec, or northland.
----------------------------------------------------
maybe we can make a difference this year.
have faith, you all! (:
steal my soul; 6:42 PM
oh my god.
seriously, stop being a bitch.get lost when you should.
and stay when you're wanted.
steal my soul; 9:11 PM
baby, i promise i will cherish
this.
your presence in my life, your love for me,
the support you give, the trust in me
and generally, everything else that you're willing to give and sacrifice.
steal my soul; 6:57 PM
i was just thinking about it.
and now i wonder if what i did was what i always wanted.
somehow, it felt like a big mistake to walk out and come back only when its time to leave.
i'm sorry, love.
but maybe thats the end.
steal my soul; 1:47 PM
yeah michelle,
it's time for you to wake up.
i seriously need
that girl back.
i cant keep
feeling lost [ both physically and mentally ] during floorball.
i haven't been doing so well,
and i don't want to affect the team's performance during the tournaments.
steal my soul; 10:26 PM
it was not only suppose to be you.
instead,
IT IS YOU.you'll
never understand how i feel. and there's just some things i can't say right now.
so maybe. just maybe.
we feel the same for each other but never knew. but its okay, thats enough for me.
i made an oath, and i should stick to it.
baby, i'm sorry.
steal my soul; 11:39 PM
yeah, today's friendly with RJC was
OKAY.
i
didn't play my best,
in fact, i think i did horribly.
can't coordinate well with kim somehow.
maybe thats why we're never grouped together during tournaments.
sorry for my mistakes yeah?
but thankfully, we still won (:
steal my soul; 11:34 PM
oh gosh.
that was the
most embarrassing moment ever.
i was so engrossed with looking at the
absolute magnificance of the lift mirror,
i didn't see you coming.
and yeah, you were coming at a high speed.
so, we came face to face.
which was a total undesired stage.
thank god, i'll never see you again.
steal my soul; 10:20 AM
god. that was the coldest thing you could tell me when i've been trying to get to you.
fine. be that way.
steal my soul; 12:19 AM
yeah,
so what if i wrote songs that are commendable.
you'll
never get to read them,
and
never know they were directed at you.
i will never be able to pick up the courage to show you either.
because i know, to you, i dont really matter.so just leave it as that.
we were never possible,
anyway i swore that my heart will never skip a beat for you again.
steal my soul; 12:09 AM
yeah, i was so engrossed with everything else, i totally forgot about my horrid fall yesterday.
i didn't mean to make you all worry, but
thanks.
and i love you all (:thank god i didn't hurt myself too badly.
or else, 'bye bye tournament!'
steal my soul; 12:28 AM
gosh, my march holidays are
jam packed with activities.
have to go back to school.
from monday- thursday.
just simply amazing.
almost like any ordinary school week.
but thankfully, its only for a few hours.
so, there's a parent-teacher meeting session ( or whatever you call it ) tomorrow.
but i don't think there's anything my mum wants to know of, really.
steal my soul; 11:53 PM
aw, i'm going to miss melsa.
and all that
poem writing!
because we're back to our original arrangement.
and we're nowhere near each other.
anyway, here's our last poem,
or at least for now:
-------------------------------------
Legend
[] - melsa[] - me NatureBlooming red flowers littered the park.On the glassy water, waddled the ducks.Seeing our initials on that old tree bark,I was reminded of you, my favourite drug.Recalling the escapades we had,and the very first time we met.Watching the hue of the sun set,we gently laid down on our backs.Happy memories from the past,never seem to last.Realising that you betrayed my trust,so now, all that's left is dust
steal my soul; 11:21 PM
hey poem lovers,
we've got another one
coming soon!and its
better than before! (:
steal my soul; 11:25 PM
yeah, so 2 things i do when i have a boring lesson:
1.
sleep2.
talkwell, melsa came up with this
superb idea to entertain ourselves during elect geog
yesterday.GETTING POETIC (:
and this was what we got at the end of the day:
-------------------------------------
Legend
[] - melsa[] - me River flowswhen i blow.Give my boat a little row,over the waves they calmly rollGently comes the wind,and there wasn't any hintof an oncoming sin.corners of your lip- a sneaky grinLet's go in for a dip,coming out lip to lip.give my clothes a rip,come on, lets all strip! (:Enough of this, we shall stop.hold me close, and bring me to your fort.Show me all the love you've gotThat's the only thing i sought.
steal my soul; 11:05 PM
you
didnt understand.
and you
never will.
give me a break, mum.
i can't satisfy everyone.
steal my soul; 10:04 PM
yeah, jill's right.
so i'm going to stop thinking,
and start focusing on something more worthwhile.
the annual interschool floorball b div [ girls ] tournaments are just around the corner. and the spirit, momentum and little bits of excitement are starting to kick up.
the
immense pressure is coming as well,
due to miss lam's
target for us -
2nd.
steal my soul; 10:39 PM
i'm sorry i keep hurting you time and again.
you did say you'll respect my decision.
and i seriously thought everything will be alright after a while.
but no, everything seems like they'll
never return back to normal.
its been ages since you got so upset, and
its all my fault.
it really breaks my heart to see you like this, and not being able to do anything to cheer you up.i know an
infinite number of sorrys can never make you feel better.
but i cant help but say it.
if only i never existed. then you would never be hurt because of me.
steal my soul; 7:00 PM
oh god. yesterday was the worse it could get.
everything was so super awkward.
how are we going to be good friends then?
if we have problems even approaching each other to say hi.
anyway, had fun watching the canadians play ice hockey (:
steal my soul; 4:56 PM
to you, it may all
just seem like a simple gesture, or evidence of just sheer perseverance.
but to me,
everything you have done and said made a big difference in my life.
steal my soul; 2:58 AM
